My Michael Jackson!

Hmm...the morning the news that Michael Jackson had passed away, I got several sms and calls from my family members. They were sharing their kind sentiments with me. I did not feel any different from any other ordinary person on hearing the news; shocked and saddened but that was it. Yet, they were all passing emails and sms asking "how is she taking it".

I was surprised to realize that I was not affected by Michael Jackson's death as I would have been in the mid 80s. I was one of his craziest fans and drove my dad and siblings crazy collecting all his stuff. I had my room with his posters on the wall, postcards, cassettes, videos, tshirts, stickers, the works. I had his picture drawn by one of my good friends, Renee, in the eighth grade (God bless her), I wrote him letters to invite me for any of his concerts, learnt all his moves.......Looking back I really got my dad to spend a lot of money on me. Hmm....strangely now it all comes back to me like a bolt of lightning.....where did all that die-hard fan emotions go of mine. I thought I would never love anyone as much as MJ!I knew the lyrics to every song of his, PYT being one of my favorites after Billie Jean. I used to fight with any and every person who used to so much as even suggest that he was not normal. Fact remains that he was my idol then, but not anymore.

I always wondered why my daughter had to have anything and everything that has a 'Hannah Montana' tag or the famous "HSM" logo. For her, it really does not matter if its an over sized pyjama, a pair of sock, a teeny weeny bag, another cushion, whatever. I remember how my parents indulged me with all my heart's desires. I would not define myself as "spoilt child". I guess all these idols, imitations are trimmings of growing years. With time you grow out of it, just as I did.

Today I do feel bad about MJ's death. I feel he had a very sad life, he had too much for any person to handle, bearing in mind he saw fame and money from a very young age. He was defamed through alot of scandals, which may have been true. Funny how the press always abused him and mocked him while he was alive, and today, they just keep chanting praises on how he is a legend, an icon, King of Pop.....why do they wait until a person is dead to give him the compliments that they should have while he lived.

I feel for his family who are left behind. They would have never expected him to die so soon. I am sure there were many feelings and unsaid words that they missed out telling him due to the distance created by fame and money. Here's hoping we never take each other for granted in our lives. All I would say is treat everyone as if it was your last day and you will have no regrets.